RainyMood
It's baaaack~!
RainyMood makes all of my music so much better. Go to sleep listening to it when media players decide to crop me of my privileges after a bit of inactivity, mayhaps. It's a beautiful thing.
What's going on guys? Sorry I've been so sporadic. I feel like I apologize a lot, and then promise you guys just as many entries as I'd love to make, but things happen, and things get in the way.
I'm presently just hammering this out because I needed to before I ran out for a bit.
It's been raining today. It rained the day before yesterday too, right? But yesterday was a friend's birthday, and we celebrated it thoroughly with a trip to the beach!
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| Happy 21st, Igor! Thanks for coming, Cami and Milika! Love you guys. | =] |
So that was fun.
Did today seem relatively rocky to anyone else? I don't know what it was, but I had to wake up earlier than I normally do out of the week, and then I was just in a cramped headspace all day. Let's see what the horoscope for today says.
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What?
Capricorn (12/22 to 1/19)
Alias: The Seagoat
Today: Tuesday, May 28, 2013"You are feeling quite passionate about a cause or a belief, but if you choose to broadcast your views then you are opening yourself to spar with other who have opposing opinions. If that's okay with you, Capricorn, then go ahead and say what you have to say. But if you would prefer to have a more peaceful an harmonious day, then remain quiet and tolerant. While you probably suspect that a certain person will disagree with you, and you would like the opportunity to debate the topic, you will have more of an impact if you say very little."
Oh. I didn't read the last line.
Hmm. Interesting.
Have you guys ever read your horoscopes? I mean, I used to just read them and think that they were too generic, but it's like an unofficial handbook for life. It's not like we get any other ones when we come from the womb, so an open mind to these things would normally keep us engaged and on some sort of track. You can always, simply enough, agree or disagree. I've met a lot of people who believe in different things, and horoscopes is the more of the miniscule in terms of impact.
And I could go into a whole spiel over the stars and how magnificently wondrous and mysterious and enticing they are, but there's another time for that: when I'm not rushing and trying to keep my feet rooted, y'know?
I don't know what's been going on, but this summer's just started... raw.
Maybe I need to visit my family and friends whom I haven't seen yet.
Plus I have a new nephew to go meet, so that's another thing on the list. Albeit, one of the enjoyable parts of being a Capricorn, I suppose.
So, I wanted to talk about a few things, and this I didn't really get permission to talk about, but she did request that I talk about her in the next entry, so I did.
For those of you who are unaware, I have a great friend who I met during the school year and grew really close with. Milika Cherée, I believe I've mentioned her before. For those of you who don't know her, check her out: she's musically talented, beautiful, intelligent, intuitive, and an all-around grand person.
Most of the Cancers I know tend to be.
If you are familiar with zodiacs, astrology and all that nice stuff, you would be familiar with the notion that Capricorns and Cancers aren't usually supposed to make great friendships. Same thing with Capricorn and Scorpios, but that's another story [ love my sister, Nicole Pastore - check out the link in the book image at the top if you don't know her ]. Anyhow, Milika and I have grown to be like brother and sister, mostly because of the few things we're involved in together [ like 'Til Further Notes (TFN) ] and all the time we spend together. I appreciate her friendship and should most certainly learn how to cherish human beings more than I do already. And, naturally, find a way to express this other than the writings of my mind that I rarely feel comfortable voicing openly.
Cancers' motif is the crab. The crab has a hard exoskeleton, but roll it over onto the back and not only is it immobile, but it is vulnerable. They are really emotional people, and I've learned that they're usually my source of empathy, guiding my practical and goal-oriented mind to share some sort of pleasure and compassion with my aspirations. For those of you who are familiar with my best buds Alex Quow and Erik Garnes, are Cancers as well. Wow, I have a lot more Cancer pals than I thought I did. Funny that.
We were driving back from the beach yesterday, and normally when Milika and I are together in a car, we get to talking. Talking about anything and everything. Usually things that we wouldn't put off for another moment, and the conversation's open and elaborate and wholly engaging; another reason why I appreciate Milika as much as she hopes I do. She's always there when you need to talk, and while someone may have an affliction or something that Milika does not feel comfortable with or about, she is accommodating and polite, as her mother has rightfully done in raising her.
Listen to me, I sound like I'm raving about her.
Sorry.
We were just talking. About the friends and family we knew. And it was a nice conversation. We talked about the "precursor" relationship, our Mama and Papa from TFN and how friends of ours would or would not match the level of genuine realness that they embodied in their relationship. Just about everyone in our acapella group adores them, no matter what happens in which way or that, and it's something about them that always graces our presence.
Maybe it's because they're destined for greatness with each other and in their own paths.
Then came self-conscience, barging in. It usually crippled our conversations if only for a moment, leaving us to wonder in a bit of silence, but she asked her question in a tone that was rather detectable. Obviously, she wasn't trying to hide anything and it made everything smoother. Once she expressed her thoughts, it got me to thinking.
How people do things for others selflessly. How I'd give up everything and anything for any individual, ranging from random stranger to one of my closest friends or relatives. It was just a nice reminder to know that wholeness still existed in this world.
In this world where people argue and debate over one another and their rights, where people slaughter and beat figuratively and literally - this place where we dwell on the bad much more often than we celebrate the good.
I don't know a lot of things. People come to me for wisdom, yet my wisdom teeth have yet to fully grow in. I'll let you know when they do, I suppose, but I just find that things come to me within the range of common sense. But what is the actuality of common sense? Some people are raised to discover these objective truths, rather than being taught them from their youth.
Like being nice to a stranger can have the same consequences as being mean to a stranger; you might see them again later that day - twice, even. You don't need to make a friend from it, but love is just as infectious as hatred is.
While I'm no stranger to being human, it's easier said than done. Of course. Yet, sometimes when I have a split-second to myself, none of my acclaimed wisdom that you guys come here and eat up sprouts from me. I guess it's part of my being a "situated" person: I need to be in the right element, the right mindset and setting, in order for things to function.
While a seagoat only has two hooves, they're to be rooted firmly.
How does a Seagoat even scale mountains. That's, like, an automatic handicap.
Totally unfair.
Haha.
Alright, I think I'm going to leave it at this: just sitting and thinking, hypothesizing, leaves a bunch of remnants on the inside of your mind. "What could be...?" and "What if...?" We all have lives of our own to live, but there's always going to be a community; with each growing second, technology does bring us further apart while bringing us closer. A happy medium's always optimal, but you find me on here more often than you see me speaking with strangers in the street.
So maybe that's what I'll start doing. I'll dedicate weekends out of the month figuring out how to make my way to community service for the summer. And work and take summer classes.
"If it's important, you'll make time."
- Jamyn of "Live, Love & Be Fit" Blogspot.
Hope you all had a lovely Memorial Day Weekend to those who observe. Thanks to the soldiers all around the world who keep everything in check, risking their lives and dedicating their time, effort, and focus doing something I could never bring myself to do. You deserve so much more than so many lines of my miniscule thanks, but there aren't words I could use to even convey pride, honor and such inspiration. Even for a moment.
<3 ~ Monty.
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